today IVAN left us for California to further his studies.... ;'( was not able to see him off at the airport like the rest...was involved in the Yr 3 Graduation...but i guess i din wanna see him off..coz know i'll cry and din wan him and the rest to see ba... well..it's tough not to cry even tho i know he'll be coming back for holidays..BUT it's not like everyday ur fren goes overseas for a LONG period of time rite??

things will surely be diff w/o him here.... :'( it's like losing a brother..Miss him already....know the rest will also miss him...3 yrs isnt long rite??? and really thank the Lord that i din go to the airport...if not i wld hv broken down...yeah~~ and not juz broken down but brawled my eyes out...haha...yea... :(

anyway...i did msg him in sch....b4 he left..yeah...i wld admit that i cried...so ya..wad do u expect?? i knew abt his decision to go to US to further his studies a long time ago..but no matter how hard a person tries to prepare himself and to act like it's ok...it's still hard to see a fren go when the time COMES...esp a fren that i see as my bro..yup his flight left Spore at 11am..Pray that GOD will Protect him and his family....and that he'll arrive safely..

ya so i cried..but loretta tot that the reddness of my eyes were frm the late nite...i din get back home til abt 3.30++ in teh morning..ya~ the day b4 had met up w ivan and the rest to eat our last dinner w HIM (aka..last Supper..lOlx) @ Newton circus...yup..aft that had teh inspiration to go K box....wanted to go to Hougang k Box however due to the fact that the last train at the NEL line had already departed...we went to the K Box At Dhoby Ghaut...at teh train stat i was already fightign back the tears that wld surface..however i'm grateful that i kept them in check throughout the journe down there and also durign the singings...yup...managed to draw strength frm within..esp when we said our goodbyes...din hug him and give him the affirmation that i shld hv tho..coz knew if i did than that'll be the end...e flood gates wld be open...ya..managed to hold til i was back home adn in my rm...yup...u all muz b thinkign my a crybaby...but a cry baby?? nope... emotional...?? YES..

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