the flu bug is gg ard eh....kena it man on tues...hahaha...man oh man...well on sat to sun hvign church camp...yupyup it's a 3 days camp but since mon i hv sch so cant stay on..hmmm....also on sat hving a briefing at somewhere near National Stadium...will be helping out in the Standars Chartered Run....hahah will be the Baggage Collector..lol same as Roanna..hee hee cOol....

ah well....life is on the up hill now....haha hope i'll be spirtually charged aft the camp...lol...oh man....there is one more tempting thing...hhaha bry will be hving his party at Ants this sat...ah but i cant go...hai yo....lol...really feel like gg leh..hee hee but hv camp...humph! nah..it's ok ....another time i pray....

Oh ya! today is the last day of TEP!!!! Yeah! Finally!! back to classical modules.....cant wait...but also kinda hesitant..dunno if can get back to normal studies anot...but than it's better hv more time to ourselves....yupyup will be taking flexi today...frm 12 onwards.....go home pack bag hee hee....than later gg for spirtual prep in church....hmmm... yupyup that's the events update......

last night...i received an overseas letter all the way from Australia....and straight away i tot of Ferlene..and guess wad....it really was her!!! wah! almost cried man.haha we lost contact like 4 yrs ago....and i had always been wondering wad happened to her....but finally she sent a letter to me...wah!!1 i'm So Happy!!!u cant imagine the joy i still experience...hahahah well she said that she'll be coming over to Spore this end of the yr...so cant wait to see her.....i cant wait to tell this news to ber....haha i'm so happy..thank the Lord......yeah man!!!!

hey...hmm....not feeling that well....kinda feel sorry for myself...yup yup..nth more to say abt that aspect of my life....think feeling sorry for myself says it all..so period.

anyway this morning went to chruch for our first PnW....well...it was not bad for us..as it was our first time...MeLvin did a great job as worship learder..yup yup and overall all think we were great....

went for mass at 11.30...yupyup and saw bry...have not seem him for a long time already...haha can see that he is toner....yupyup...but it's really funny that he wld even acknowledge me..lol.....hmm...i hv nv talked to him in person b4..that is the funny thing...online yupyup did b4...but not now...anyway....i juz feel bad today....

juz wanna say that i'm not a very reliable person so u hv been warned.....really leh..wad am mi gd at??? i really hv no idea...think i'm gd fro nth....hai....dunno yi'm here also...my exsistants exactly deprive others from the oxygen.....i'm juz wastign the fresh air...hai i dunno lah..i'm in such a pitiful state.....it's sad u know.....hai...

i've told myself b4 to be happy and not let any external factor affect me..but guess all the hurt, saddness that i had tried to bury has finally overflown....hmm...dun worry abt me...the next tiem u see me i'll be happy....but i wonder..how long will it last again....wad's my goal in life? wad am i gd at? i hardly excel in anything...unless running..but how far in life can running bring a person....? i dun only wan to excel in running...call me greedy or selfish...but do i give a damn? to me now i'm juz an AIMLESS sOUL..gg with the flow..without directions and how far will i go b4 i breakdown or do sth stupid??? who can i really trust? i hv nv shown my true emotions to anyone...not even brenda....i also dun talk much.....y is that so??? oh how i hate myself....y oh y....

ok mates...i've uploaded 2 more folderes of pics frm my gallery....haha well both folders were taken one yr back but it sure brings back fond memories..wahhaha

the Xmas Carolling 2003...was with the RCIY grp...we visited a few homes to sing..hee hee..

the 2nd folder was taken last yr dec 1st-3rd when i followed my sec sch tnf team to Mt. Belumut for a treking trip...hmmm ms neo wanted to organise another trip somewhere else this dec but than this yr does not seem to be a gd yr...esp with us seniors being unfit (hee hee kidding) and hving to start sch in dec...hai so we cant go and ms neo cld not organise..hai...sch sux sux man....

u can check out this 2 folders by clicking on the link on the right column...juz scrolll down to snapshots...

whOoT hOo!!! man i love this wk...wahaha it has been THE most enjoyable blk leave EVER!!!

juz reached home frm aaron's dad's place..

ytd started out w me gg for my driving lesson than coming home...slacked abit online than watched SI...guessed as much...daphne's put...and now it all boils down to the last remaining 3!! Olinda, Taufik and SLYVESTER!!! wahahhaa....well tho i like sly...but i will rather prefer oli and taufik to be the lasat 2 standing....this is my prediction however, with all the unexpected votes and all it'll be hard to say...haha anyway thinki digressed a bit too far le...

kk...back on track...so aft the SI went to get ready to meet ilona, den, freddie and daphne at 9.45pm at amk mrt busstop...the few of us were meeting up to head down to bukit timah plaza...since we were early and the host had not yet arrived...we went to Mac to hv a light snack...haha....aft that w nth to do we decided to walk...walk where none of us knew...wahha we juz wanted to waste time as the rest still had not arrived...man we waited for an hr..wahaha out last resort was to sit at the steps to the condo and sing P&W songs...wAHhahhaa by then i was already stoning...anyway they finally arrived...and the "they" were bernard, kenny, geraldine, hazel, benedict(ben), and mister aaaron himself...wAHhaha yeah!!! finally we cld chill out at a proper place...

went in and made ourselves comfortable...for the beginning part...i was juz stoning...and watching the mtvs..hahaha when my butt wasnt that heavy wahaha played pool...yeah man...i love pool tho i'm not very gd at it...wahaha can hardly aim the ball into the pocket properly...while some of us were playing pool...the others were either playing scrabble, learnign the guitar or playing cards...i also played "Daidee" and "Bridge" hee hee...

at ard 4am cass joined us..whaha she's damnon...and that's great! ahhaha she came aft work....yup yup...i drank a bit of the red wine that they poured and played a game of pool with cass..wahhaha

at ard 5++ the guys statred to play rough with themselves..wahhaaha as the sofa cld only sit 4 ppl all the guys were vying for the few seats..wahhah so they tried all means and ways to get the other party out of the seats by tickling, dragging them offf or juz plain sitting on the "poor" guy one an top of the other...wahahha and it was so damn funny coz ilona and cass were also sitting on the sofa so basically they were like all squeezed to the corners..wahhahah as for me..wahha i was safe...enjoying the action gg on..wahhahaand laughing ....lol...

at ard 6++am...freddie suggested that we go for an early breakfast..lol so there were wnt...hunting for roti prata but realizing that there wasnt as it was hari raya...and so we went to the nearby market to hv breakfast...aft breakfast...freddie, daphne, ben and ber all went home...leaving ken, den, cass, ilona, aaron and me...we headed back to the apartment...geraldine and hazel had left at ard 3++am...

yup so back at the apartment...we played bridge..than slp was consuming us..wahha so we slept..wahhaha luckily me..i took the sofa..wahhaa.. but whoa..it was cold man....we woke up at ard 11am....and than we stoned abit tgh..wahha took a few "scandaless" pics..wahhaha and than continued with our bridge...

den left at 11.30am as he had to make it to his work place by 1pm... yupyup the rest of us stayed on for a few more minutes b4 we too left for another rd of breakfast...wahahahaha thsi time a KFC...yupypu ate the tom yum one..hmmm it's ok la..they juz put tom yum powder on the crispy skin..that's all...yupyup and aft that..back home i came...aaron drove us home..wahhaha..yupyup...and i reached home at abt 2pm...yaWn~~~ think i'll go get back my slp..wahha nite ntie peeps..lol cHeerX

today...another day passed by so quickly..wahhaha anyway....had my driving lesson...this time rd...i wasnt that nervous...so that's great! lol....did a few rds in thecircuit b4 my instructor saw fit that i cld mov eon outside the circuit..wahhaha well it was ok..juz that i'm still not confident with my changing of gears...still not very sure how to change properly from one gear to another....

i tried going on to the main rd...but that was bad.....i panicked! lol..hmm...guess it was too fast...hai....i still dunno y i'm not confident....hai but the feelign inside is the same as b4 a r ace...had that same feeling so y now...do i feel like quitting...b4 my race when i had to same feeling i nv tot of quitting so y now?? haha hmmm...but i'm NOT a QUITTER....so i'll continue on....i'll do my best....and i'll tell myself that i'll be able to improve....YESH!!!

IF U CAN DO IT....I CAN TOOOOOOOOO!

back frm my outing w my church frens...haha not act an outing but dinner cum chilling chilling at Happy Daze (HD)...

i met up w cass at 6.45 at Chomp Chomp..than we managed to get seats..haha druce followed behind me than evelyn...hahaha...we were supposed to meet at 6.30 but knowing RCIY ppl..waahaha always late one..lolso those that came first bought dinner hahaha...i ate fish and chips..but nah ate one slice of fish and was full already so whahaha druce ate teh other slice...yupyup soon kevin and kenny arrived....finally man..they were late..wahhaha tha aaron and ilona also arrived....finally all was here already...

as cass and i had already eaten and since aaron and ilona arrived at 7.30...and it was quite squeezy.....cass and i decided to head to HD first to get seats and i tot Singapot idol was at 8...wahhaha but guess not...anyway over at HD we ordered Magarita Lime and another alcoholic drink wahhahah.....yeah man,....and watched "A Bug's Life" wahhahahha yeah...so when everyone arrived at HD we all watched SI together...basically today was a slack day out...wahhaa which is great!!

after that played "Bridge" with evelyn, cass adn druce..whaha it was the craziest game that i ever played man..wahhahha so damn funny...esp durign one game when cass was so hyped..wahhaha makign me laugh too.wahahhahah

the night ended at ard 11.30..hahha and back home i came...lol....tml will be hving driving and i pray i wont be as nervous as b4....than aft that at ard 10pm will be gg over to aaron's father's place....waahaha the whole lot of us will be toning over at his place...wahah aplay pool and more Bridge..wHoo HOO hahhaha!!!

yo juz came back from my outtign ....wAHhahaha was supposed to meet bren today..but she msged me in teh morning saying sth abt cannot meet coz throat sore or sth like that lah...so ok lor...hahha get to slp more...lol....than at 12.10 received ilona's msg..haha saying today had music practise at ken's place....

so bo bian..had to wake up at get ready....than met her at 1.30......practice a few P&W songs....until ard 5.30pm...in the beginning there wre only teh 6 of us...kenny, ilona, daphny, dennis, bernard adn me...but aaron came at a later timing..wahhah yupyup....well i juz went there as an extra..i think..wAHha cld not contribute much...juz went there to sing abit...well i dun hv any musical bgrd...hahaha yup..that's y...

anyway....aaron and i left at 5.30pm...he had to go back to camp for some rifle shooting thingy lah...not very sure...but he had to record teh results...haha 100m range leh...the target will be like so small hahha...yupypu.. anyway..... we left at 5.30pm...and had an early dinner at the nearby coffee shop....while eating..aaron was telling me that kevin and druce were staying near to kenny, and he pointed out teh blk that kevin adn druce were staying....than wad a coincidence...wAHhah we saw druce adn steven..wAHha they were gg jogging....lol....yeah man...

aft dinner...aaron drove me to j8....yupyup..was gg to meet my juniors....coz it was one of their b-day...so they decided to call the seniors....

anyway roanna adn ms neo came also..so after the celebration...the 3 of us decided to head to Coffeebean to sit and chat...than chatted until 11pm...yupypu than back hoem i came..hahahah

today was a noce day...everythign fell in smoothly.....hahaha yeah! as for tml....willrest at home in the morning than meet up w cass adn the rest tml nite to chill at Haapy Daze....

Home sweet home....i'm so glad to be back...today's performance was worst than ytd's...oh man...i wanna cry..haha i hv no idea y i was so jittery today..kept on stalling and jerking the car...worst than ytd..... my instructor even told me that ytd i was better...oh man..wad's happening?? gettign cold feet?? wAHHah PRAY not....i muz remain calm and focus...

Muz THINK fast adn ACT fast...

anyway..bk my lessons for next wk already and also got my PDL License....than from wad my instructor told me...on fri i'll get a feel of driving on the real road....oh man..i din expect to hit the rds so quickly...oh ok!! wAHha CANT waIT!!! erm..muz try to seem enthu abt it..WHAHah

tml gg out w bren...yupyup..so long nv get to see her already...hai yo.....hmmmm...nth much already..so tata CHeerX

oh ya forgot to mention...today's weather was fantastic....when i went to ssdc..it was sunny and when i went back home...the rain had stopped...wah!! that's great...juz really wanna show u how powerful OUR LORD is....

i din bring an umbrella when i went to ssdc..and than it rained while i was in the car...which was amazing...aft that the rain stopped when i was abt to go home....

whoa!!

also ...HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY to WILLIE!!! may ur days be well spend b4 u reach ur 19th B-day...hee hee.....

hey hye..i'm backkkkkk...back frm SSDC...oh man....i'm still trembling...wAHhahah

cant belief that i managed to go thru with the first session...well for starter...the instructor wasnt too bad...tho he was strict at times..hmm..stalled the car a number of times too...whahah scary....can still say that i'm stilll not relaxed....but it's really amazing that i managed to get the car moving with juz a light press of teh pedals...it's really amazing leh...hahha and also a light press on teh brake will get it to stop..wow..it's all still so surreal....i muz be DREAMING...waHhahaha hai yo.....i'm very afraid of wad tml will bring...wad if i forget a few things frm today?? hai yo...maybe i think too much....

anyway..tml will be my second rd...hv to practise on my changing of gear....will hv to praactise on the changing of gears frm 1-2...yupyup..and than...tml will also hv to apply for my PDL..oh i'll be able to DO IT!!!

wow...on sat...went to sentosa to do waitressing...hmm....there was a function at Siloso Beach...well....this function was for the Higher Class ppl....even teh US Ambassordor was there...yupyup i saw Flying dutchman there too..he was the host for the evening....well the ppl there were dressed to kill sia..haha their gowns and suits were breathtaking..hahah it was a buffet dinner so we din hv to do much..juz asked if they wanted a re-fill of their drinks...and than helped them to clear their plates and dishes...

well it was a nice experience..haha and also saw zhu long there..he was also helping out for this event...so many yrs nv see him already..but din hv time to chat w him..hahah yupyup meng heong adn andy were also there...wHAhah

Meng heong was the one that called mein..yupyup and to think that i was dreading it..haha act it turned out not bad..juz dunno if i'll help them again..wAHhaah hmmm i wld like to be at the bar instead of serving the guest..wAHhahah no need to walk that much

hai yo and that andy....funny lah..one min gd mood the other not....humph! wad was funny was i've nv seen him brief ppl so it was quite comical when he called to hv a small briefing w us...said one or 2 sentences adn that was it.....than he still can ask me wad i'm smiling abt..hahhaaah haha but cant be help lah...he also din hv the full schedule.....

well in any case i'm thankful that i din break anything....phew! big sigh of relief...that it's all over....

Now another obstacle...i'm hving my first driving practical today...oh man...and i dunno wad to aspect..wad if the instructor is strict? Wad will happen today? how will he teach?? wAHah later he juz toss me the car key adn ask me to start..wAHHahaha i'll faint man....How quickly will i be able to catch on??? oh man...

gotta get ready soon..oh man...oh man..oh man..i JUZ hate teh unknown....maybe that's y i prefer to be a faciliator or guide...it's better..i hate this feeling of not knowing wad will happen..arGH!!

hmm...many days hv not blogged already..ah well..it's getting abit tiring fo rme to everytime type out the days happenings...

anyway...ltr at nite...will be waitressing somewhere in sentosa...dunno y i even agreed to it..wAHhaha juz to help my fren i guess...hmm..but afraid leh...ltr i break all the plates and glasse..wahahahaa

i dun even hv black shoes...oh man..i'm regretting it....sob sob sob....hmm....will be coming back ard 1++am..that's wad my fren says..so yup yup...oh i pray...everything wil go smoothly...and i will not cock up anything...esp in my shoes....hai also afraid my wrist wont be able to hold....nvm..aha hope i do those light stuff..hee hee.....

4th week in iBid..already..well days sure pass by fast........which is good.. haha also i'm glad that i've already presented my Flash MMD..yeah!!!! tho i dun think i did a good job of it....esp my story board...hmm..but it's over...aft a hell of a day ths morning.i'm juz greatful that it's over....

now let's try sth diff..i'm gg to tell a story.. hmm...hv not written compo for so long already..kinda rusty....haha anyway......