hey...hmm....not feeling that well....kinda feel sorry for myself...yup yup..nth more to say abt that aspect of my life....think feeling sorry for myself says it all..so period.

anyway this morning went to chruch for our first PnW....well...it was not bad for us..as it was our first time...MeLvin did a great job as worship learder..yup yup and overall all think we were great....

went for mass at 11.30...yupyup and saw bry...have not seem him for a long time already...haha can see that he is toner....yupyup...but it's really funny that he wld even acknowledge me..lol.....hmm...i hv nv talked to him in person b4..that is the funny thing...online yupyup did b4...but not now...anyway....i juz feel bad today....

juz wanna say that i'm not a very reliable person so u hv been warned.....really leh..wad am mi gd at??? i really hv no idea...think i'm gd fro nth....hai....dunno yi'm here also...my exsistants exactly deprive others from the oxygen.....i'm juz wastign the fresh air...hai i dunno lah..i'm in such a pitiful state.....it's sad u know.....hai...

i've told myself b4 to be happy and not let any external factor affect me..but guess all the hurt, saddness that i had tried to bury has finally overflown....hmm...dun worry abt me...the next tiem u see me i'll be happy....but i wonder..how long will it last again....wad's my goal in life? wad am i gd at? i hardly excel in anything...unless running..but how far in life can running bring a person....? i dun only wan to excel in running...call me greedy or selfish...but do i give a damn? to me now i'm juz an AIMLESS sOUL..gg with the flow..without directions and how far will i go b4 i breakdown or do sth stupid??? who can i really trust? i hv nv shown my true emotions to anyone...not even brenda....i also dun talk much.....y is that so??? oh how i hate myself....y oh y....