guess wad..it's 12.17 on a mon morning..hmm tired already but still feel like blogging...well hv not done my tut for ltr....geesh! and will be hving ICT presentation! yupyup man presentations "ROCKS"! ...thankfully we need not need to dress formal...
the past wk had been smooth sailing most of the days...went for dance practice aft MIAing for sooo long...well they are preparing for the Open Hse that's coming up soon...and aft missing for so long juz being back for pracice really made me feel handicap...haha
other than that...nth much happened through out the wk...but on thursday eve msged the MM ppl asking us to go for charismatic...and i was hesitant in the beginning coz i still had my project research to complete the next day...however, din know wad force it was..but than i did go for it in the end...had dinner at the coffeeshop behind church than headed for charismatic...our assignment during charismatic waqs to observe how Cassandra led worship..we had to observe every expect of it...while at the same time praising and worshipping the Lord...yea....that day was the frist time that i did set aside my fears and decided to go up for praying over...normally i dun go up for healing on my own accord..but dunno y that day i decided to do it...well it wasnt ez ok...there were alot of tots in my head...was really hesitant and was asking God if i really had to do it...haha...was very scared ok..coz like i said i dun normally go up for praying over..so it really took the HS and teh strength of the Lord to pull me up n stand firm to say that "Yes, i will do it" and i see it as the frist step for me to open up (to initiate and talk more)and to share and trust a person. ESPECIALLY to Trust and to Believe in the Lord and that all things will work out fine...coz w/o those 2 values i wld not hv been able to go up....
and yup aft teh praying over, i do feel a change in me...i wont say i'm totally healed but than i do feel happier...yeah! Praise the Lord! hee hee...
and frm ytd's sponsor's training..we touched on Sharing...and yup this is Sharing..it's sth that touched my life and yup tho i still am not that prepared to Share to ppl face-to-face...however, i'm taking this as a stepping stone...the first step to opening up my heart and mouth and to share on my feelings...
today i led in the closing for the Mm training..and yup made a testimony on my life and led it with a song....the song is
"Thank You, Lord"
And I Thank You Lord
For the trials that come my way
In that way I can grow each day
As I let You lead
And I thank You Lord
For the patience those trials bring
In the process of growing
I can learn to care
But it goes against the way I am
To put my human nature down
And let the Spirit take control of all I do
'Cos when those trials come
my human nature shouts the things to do
And God's soft prompting can be easily
ignored
But I thank You Lord
With each trial I feel inside
That You're there to help, lead and guide
my way from wrong
'Cos You promised Lord
That with every testing
That Your way of escaping is easier to bear
But it goes against the way I am
To put my human nature down
And let the Spirit take control of all I do
'Cos when those trials come
my human nature shouts the things to do
And God's soft prompting can be easily
ignored
Yes, I thank You Lord
For the victory that growing brings
In surrender of everything
Life is so worthwhile
And I thank You Lord
That when everything's put in place
Out in front I can see Your face
And it's there You belong