BEING 19 SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i had the most unEVENTFUL 19th B-day................hmmmmm like i said i went CB the nite b4 than had lunch on my b-day.....tho iT might NOT be tHat UnEventful...but than i do feel as tho this yr....is HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY OH WHY??

hmmm maybe it's coz it's nearing my final sem exam already than this coming wk i hv 2 presentations to do and i'm not confident...maybe that's y i feel jittery and panicky........

maybe aft my exams i'll feel better....PRAY that i'll pass.....i'm also wondering y i'm studying Business and whether i made the wrong choice...if i did...wad wld i hv chosen? i also dunno....i like sports and outdoors stuff....but wad kinda occupation will enable me to earn money and do outdoor stuff at the same time???

also....i'm considering not joining RCIY....hmmm....but another part of me wanna join.....i'm also thinking on my part...how much i can contribute to the ministry...the tot of leading worship act freaks me out....as for how much i can contribute...it's only on sun....hmmm...

i dunno y...but than helping out in rciy and in my sec sch is totally 2 different feeling altogether...and i rather prefer helping out in my sec sch....maaybe it's coz in sec sch....we have been the oldest in the sch and we help the younger ppl....and now in rciy there are ppl older than me and i'm not used to it.. Maybe..mayBe not....i'm not sure....

all i know for sure now is that tues and wed i hv presentation and i'm scared......and my exams coming....11th, 14th-16th and 18th of MArch....I'M ALSO SCARED!!!

i dun show it but inside i feel like i can crumble anytime...wad if i dun pass my exams??? wad if i dun do well? wad will happen to me? Will i continue in RCIY....it juz suddenly hit me...i feel INFERIOR to the ppl in RCIY....yup..that's y