was juz looking through all the pictures that i had taken with my track adn field mates and frens in pri adn sec sch....and i'm missing those fun adn crazy times that i had with all of them...

but it seems that even then idk it seems like i'm missing sth in my life...it juz doesnt seem like i hv FULLY enjoyed my life...how i wish i could turn back teh clock....i dk..juz feel miserable.. wad am i doing with my life?? wad will happen next time?? wad will i do?? will i like wad i'll be doing next time??

wad do i fear?? y do i fear wad i say will hurt others or whether wad i said was correct? or wad other want to hear?? y cant i juz be ME?? but wad is me?? y am i so dumb??

WAd i REALLY wish to do is to TRAVEL the whole world...climb the HIGHEST mountain...dive the DEEPEST ocean..sail the FARTHEST seas!!! but wad am i DOing on this small DOT?? it's not i dun like SIngapore juz that I WANT MORE than WAD IT CAN GIVE....I WANT TO SEE PLACES!!! I WANT TO EXPERIENCE WAD THHIS SMALL ISLAND CANT GIVE!!

my life isnt happening....or muz i look ard me to see all that i hv missed??? well maybe sch is happening..but it isnt for me...isit?? hai i juz feel i'm MISSING STH BIG IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW>>>> same old routine day in day out.... FUCK Lah wd do i even wan in my LIFE?? might as well juz slp forever....haha...hmm....but not to worry i'm NOT THAT DUMB as to COMMIT SUICIDE.... hv alot of FACTORS to consider.....and this time rd...i'm not gg to bother abt wad u all think of this post.....this is for me to lay out wad;s on my mind...so juz shut the hell up if u cant std wad i'm writting.... BLEH!!